Three Years!

I didn't know what I was getting into. All I knew was that I was in love and I was making one of the biggest decisions of my life...and I couldn't be happier. I envisioned life in the years to come. My dreams included a huge house with secret rooms and a big yard with a pool, a house full of children, a couple puppies lounging around and a lifetime of "story-book" romance with my new husband. Three years ago today, I said "I do" to a handsome poker player in front of a grumpy old man judge in a courthouse and exchanged my last name to Taylor.

I had no idea the twists and turns that life would bring me.

I had no idea the incredible freedom in Christ I would experience because of those "devastating" obstacles. Our life has been pretty much everything BUT that "story-book" romance that I wanted...and I am SO thankful. God had bigger and way better plans for me than I could ever have planned for myself. (No, I did not intend to steal that from A Walk To Remember but it stands true all the same)

Through everything that has happened, I could not ask for a better husband and best friend. I know that God is shaping our lives each day and I am looking forward to the years to come!

We are 978 miles apart. We don't get to celebrate with a candle-lit dinner. I didn't wake up to flowers and a card next to me this morning (a little jealous, Julia!). But that is not what God has for us at this moment. God has me praying for you to have a good day and that He would draw you closer to His heart every moment. God has me hoping that you get your package that I sent you by Saturday. God has me making sure that our daughter hears your voice and sees your picture every day. God has me trusting and relying on Him for my validation and love so that our relationship is stronger than it ever was or what I ever dreamt it could be.

I love you Brian Taylor. I love your smile. I love your dimples. I love your laugh. I love how it feels in your arms. I love your sense of humor. I love how you love Izzy, Vini and Ryot. I love you for the man that you are and the man that God is shaping you to be.

I love you forever...

Struggling today!

REALLY struggling with the past today.
I hate feeling like this.

I know that God is good.
I know that He is my full portion and sustaining God.
I know that He has me in His loving hands.
He is Sovereign. He is perfect. He is forgiving. He is loving.
I have to forgive just as He forgives me.
I have to trust that His plan is going to bring Him glory.

God, I desire to bring you glory even through pain if that is what you call for my life.