On a normal day, the chicken and rice that I had for lunch would be delicious! As I force myself to eat the protein and nutrients, I think of better easier days when I actually enjoyed eating. But then as I think of those better easier days, I think about the REASON I am having so much trouble eating- my little peanut! Sure before it was easier, but before I didn't have this miracle. I didn't have this precious child growing inside of me and taking from me its nutrients. Before I didn't have anyone to think about but myself. Oh how grateful I am to be blessed with this perfect, wonderful little being! Even if it means that food is gross. Even if it means I'm in a little pain or discomfort. It's so worth it!!!!
I went to visit my friend Priscilla in the hospital when she had her baby. I'm used to my stepdaughter and stepson who are 6 and 4yrs old. I'm used to my niece and nephews who are 4 and 2 yrs old. I'm used to my boss' son who is 7yrs old. But it's easy to forget how little newborns are. It was amazing. I got to see Priscilla and Josh's little miracle- Erin Rachel. She was stretching, and moving her little fingers while she was sleeping. She would wince at the bright lights and respond fondly to voices. She was beautiful. Now, I am the first person to say that most newborns, boy or girl, look like little old men. They are wrinkly and squishy and look like little old men! But Erin is beautiful. She has a FULL head of hair and the cutest little button nose.
I have never been nervous around little kids. I usually am in a little "mini-heaven" surrounded by their smiles, laughter, and many other expressions. I wasn't nervous holding Erin. I only held her for a short period of time, but I wasn't nervous. I got a little nervous after I put her back in the little bed at the hospital because I was thinking- this is going to be me in 6 months. 6 months...only half of a year....and this was going to be looking at my little one. Brian and I will be looking at the features and marveling at the stretching and expressions of our child....OUR child. Thinking about it just sent a little chill up my spine. It was more of anticipation than it was being nervous, but still the feeling was there.
Priscilla is letting me borrow 2 of her baby books for Brian and I to go through. One is of course the famous What to expect when you're expecting, and the other is a baby name book with all of the meanings. We find out if it is a boy or a girl in just 2 weeks and 3 days. I think it will be easier to start focusing on names as soon as we find out the gender. Then there will only be 50,000 names to go through instead of 100,000. lol. It's just getting more and more real everyday. Ya know what I mean? I know I can't feel the kicks and movements yet, but I know that there is a miracle taking place in our lives with this little one.
So even though I can't enjoy Chicken and Wild Rice, I will forever enjoy that pitter patter heart beat that brings me to tears every time. I can't wait to meet you little precious one.
Love and Kisses,
Kayla Taylor
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
It's Christmas Time!
Well, I'm slightly annoyed at the shipping process for Christmas presents. They brag and boast on tv about out the Priority Mail Boxes save you so much time and how they are so much more cost effective. That is crappola! First off, they don't make the boxes big enough to ship presents. They are small so you have to ship WAY more than 1 box....costing about the same as if you were going to send the big box through UPS. And then its a hassle to try to print the labels online. There wasn't a size listed on the big box that I had, and all that it said online is small, medium or large. So I will have to go to the post office and wait in the oober long line. But I shouldn't complain too much because I waited until now to ship them off.
Ok, I'm done complaining about the Post Office. It's Christmas time! Only 5 more days! I'm so excited! I'm so excited to get pictures of the kiddos opening their presents. I'm so excited for my husband to open his presents and to see his face. He is like a little kid in ALMOST every way on Christmas....the only way he is definitely not a kid is that he doesn't wake up with the sunrise to open presents. I usually will wake him up. heehee! But he shakes, smells, pokes, weighs, and anything else you can do to a present to try to see what it is. He is so bad! I'm going to have to find a good hiding spot for next Christmas.
Well, this year we will be sending out Christmas cards! I am so excited. Brian and I took pictures at a Target Studio yesterday and created a cute Christmas card to send out. We won't pick them up until Christmas Eve so they will be a little late....but look at it as a surprise gift! Think about it- you have opened all your gifts, and given everyone hugs, and the plans for the new year starts rolling in then- WHAM! -you get a Christmas card from the Taylor's! It will be a pleasant surprise! :) Well, anyway below are some of the pictures that we took yesterday. Hope you like!!!
I will put pictures on here from the Christmas Party once I get them off of my camera and on to the computer!
Love and Kisses,
Kayla Jo
Ok, I'm done complaining about the Post Office. It's Christmas time! Only 5 more days! I'm so excited! I'm so excited to get pictures of the kiddos opening their presents. I'm so excited for my husband to open his presents and to see his face. He is like a little kid in ALMOST every way on Christmas....the only way he is definitely not a kid is that he doesn't wake up with the sunrise to open presents. I usually will wake him up. heehee! But he shakes, smells, pokes, weighs, and anything else you can do to a present to try to see what it is. He is so bad! I'm going to have to find a good hiding spot for next Christmas.
Well, this year we will be sending out Christmas cards! I am so excited. Brian and I took pictures at a Target Studio yesterday and created a cute Christmas card to send out. We won't pick them up until Christmas Eve so they will be a little late....but look at it as a surprise gift! Think about it- you have opened all your gifts, and given everyone hugs, and the plans for the new year starts rolling in then- WHAM! -you get a Christmas card from the Taylor's! It will be a pleasant surprise! :) Well, anyway below are some of the pictures that we took yesterday. Hope you like!!!
I will put pictures on here from the Christmas Party once I get them off of my camera and on to the computer!
Love and Kisses,
Kayla Jo
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Blessings
I love being pregnant. I love knowing that I have a beautiful being inside of me growing and being nurtured by me. The baby is only a little over an inch now. So small and so dependent on what I eat, how I sleep, all my emotions. It's crazy, amazing, and an incredible blessing! I pray every morning on my way to work. There is something about the crisp air outside and a new beginning that just draws me to talk to him. I can't thank him enough for the blessing that he has given me and my family with this little one.
Now, I have said that I love being pregnant...and I do. I do not love the side effects that I have had with this pregnancy though. I am nauseated all the time.....ALL THE TIME. My friend laughed as she told me that I was going to have a Vegan baby because I can't really eat anything with meat. I know it sounds weird, but I went to Panera bread to get a sandwich and some soup. I love me some Panera Bread when it's a little chilly outside. I ordered a cup a soup and half of a turkey sandwich. The soup, I downed in an instant as I was SO hungry! I nibbled on the sandwich trying to get some protein but I couldn't eat even eat half of it. It was ridiculous. And for just a little more venting, I am tired all the time, have terrible backaches and am constantly hungry! But ya know what? It is so worth it. Hearing the heartbeat and seeing my little peanut gives me greater joy that surpasses any hunger, nausea, or sleep deprivation. I've only been to one ultrasound to see the heartbeat and I am definitely a worry wart, so I bought a heart doppler so that I can listen to my little one whenever I want. And believe me, this will be the newest addition to my purse. It will be with me at work, at home, and everywhere in between. Right now the baby is too small for me to feel the movements and the kicks. I am not doing anything bad or living a crazy life, but I just want everything to be so perfect. And I know it will calm me down to hear the heartbeat every now and then. Plus I think it will be a good bonding time for Brian and the baby as well.
Right now I will pull a quote from Juno...yep the movie with the 16 year old who got pregnant in high school. In this movie Jennifer Gardner plays a wife who so desperately wants to be a mother that she willingly accepts Juno's proposition for adopting her baby. After Jennifer's husband in the movie expresses that he is not ready to be a dad, Jennifer states that a woman becomes a mother when she gets pregnant and a man becomes a father when he meets the baby. I believe that is true for most situations. I believe that there are some dads out there who fall in love with the little ones, but I think it's so different to feel the baby's kicks and movement. I think it's different because the woman's body changes and grows as the baby grows and takes nutrients from the mother's body. The dad gets the fun job of late night runs for weird cravings, back rubs, and a little extra work around the house. Those aren't exactly bonding situations for the dad. haha. I think the heart doppler will be a great experience for Brian and I to be able to sit on the couch and listen to our baby.
So far everyone has told me I'm having a girl. And when I say everyone, I'm including people that I don't even know. We just bought a car- a 2007 Hyundai Santa Fe- to be exact. We did so because we have a company car that the car seat won't fit in and that is so small I don't feel comfortable with the safety, and we have a two seater truck that will not fit two adults and a car seat. So we ventured out on a day of car scouting. We test drove a Toyota 4Runner that I was totally sold on, but we wanted to check out a couple different cars. We then go to the BMW dealership. This then makes me feel incredibly poor. haha As we are sitting at our representative's desk, directly behind us is a $97,000 convertible something-or-other- in other words a NICE and EXPENSIVE car. We start looking at our options and he shows us a truck. I tell him that we need a little more room than that truck can provide. In true car salesmenship fashion, he continues pushing the issue of the truck. And with the way that I am, the thought automatically popped in my head- "Didn't I just tell him that we don't want the truck? Does he think I'm stupid or does he just not want to sell us a car today?" I am a pushover on some things, but if I tell you no and you push the issue I am not a happy cookie. I told him again that I had just said that that is not what we were looking for. He told me that he was going to go get the key so we could test drive it. I then blurted out, I'm having a baby this summer so we need something bigger for a carseat and stroller and all the baby stuff to fit in. He finally stopped pushing the truck and says "well congratulations! It's going to be a girl, I can tell." This man, who I JUST met randomly knows that I'm going to have a girl? It doesn't seem to far fetched seeing as all of my friends, family, coworkers, and everyone else wants me to have a girl. So on January 8th, 2011 we will find out! I've been trying to think of a cute way to break the news but I think I will just be so excited that I will end up just blurting it out. After all, that's what I did when we found out we were pregnant. I just called everyone and told them. Not cute or fun, but I was SO excited. My dream was finally coming true!
As Christmas approaches, I think about all of the family's with their kids waking up bright and early and rushing to open presents. I think about reading stories, drinking hot chocolate and sitting with loved ones around the fire. And as I think about all of these wonderful things, it is starting to hit me that this is my last Christmas of just Brian and me. Next Christmas we will have a little 5 month old to dress up in hilarious Christmas outfits that will embarrass them down the road. haha I'm just looking forward to having my little family all together. Now only if we could have Izzy and Vini with us as well. Maybe one day we will live close enough to get to have holidays consistently with them. But until now, I am praising God for the blessings that He has poured and continues to pour out on my family. I have a wonderful, loving, handsome husband who loves me. I have two beautiful step kids who melt my heart and who truly are a blessing. I have a little one on the way that has been my dream for a long time. I have an adorable puppy that I can dress up in ridiculous outfits. And I have food on my table, a bed to sleep in, a roof over my head, and an awesome support group. I AM BLESSED.
Love and Kisses!!!!
Kayla Jo
Now, I have said that I love being pregnant...and I do. I do not love the side effects that I have had with this pregnancy though. I am nauseated all the time.....ALL THE TIME. My friend laughed as she told me that I was going to have a Vegan baby because I can't really eat anything with meat. I know it sounds weird, but I went to Panera bread to get a sandwich and some soup. I love me some Panera Bread when it's a little chilly outside. I ordered a cup a soup and half of a turkey sandwich. The soup, I downed in an instant as I was SO hungry! I nibbled on the sandwich trying to get some protein but I couldn't eat even eat half of it. It was ridiculous. And for just a little more venting, I am tired all the time, have terrible backaches and am constantly hungry! But ya know what? It is so worth it. Hearing the heartbeat and seeing my little peanut gives me greater joy that surpasses any hunger, nausea, or sleep deprivation. I've only been to one ultrasound to see the heartbeat and I am definitely a worry wart, so I bought a heart doppler so that I can listen to my little one whenever I want. And believe me, this will be the newest addition to my purse. It will be with me at work, at home, and everywhere in between. Right now the baby is too small for me to feel the movements and the kicks. I am not doing anything bad or living a crazy life, but I just want everything to be so perfect. And I know it will calm me down to hear the heartbeat every now and then. Plus I think it will be a good bonding time for Brian and the baby as well.
Right now I will pull a quote from Juno...yep the movie with the 16 year old who got pregnant in high school. In this movie Jennifer Gardner plays a wife who so desperately wants to be a mother that she willingly accepts Juno's proposition for adopting her baby. After Jennifer's husband in the movie expresses that he is not ready to be a dad, Jennifer states that a woman becomes a mother when she gets pregnant and a man becomes a father when he meets the baby. I believe that is true for most situations. I believe that there are some dads out there who fall in love with the little ones, but I think it's so different to feel the baby's kicks and movement. I think it's different because the woman's body changes and grows as the baby grows and takes nutrients from the mother's body. The dad gets the fun job of late night runs for weird cravings, back rubs, and a little extra work around the house. Those aren't exactly bonding situations for the dad. haha. I think the heart doppler will be a great experience for Brian and I to be able to sit on the couch and listen to our baby.
So far everyone has told me I'm having a girl. And when I say everyone, I'm including people that I don't even know. We just bought a car- a 2007 Hyundai Santa Fe- to be exact. We did so because we have a company car that the car seat won't fit in and that is so small I don't feel comfortable with the safety, and we have a two seater truck that will not fit two adults and a car seat. So we ventured out on a day of car scouting. We test drove a Toyota 4Runner that I was totally sold on, but we wanted to check out a couple different cars. We then go to the BMW dealership. This then makes me feel incredibly poor. haha As we are sitting at our representative's desk, directly behind us is a $97,000 convertible something-or-other- in other words a NICE and EXPENSIVE car. We start looking at our options and he shows us a truck. I tell him that we need a little more room than that truck can provide. In true car salesmenship fashion, he continues pushing the issue of the truck. And with the way that I am, the thought automatically popped in my head- "Didn't I just tell him that we don't want the truck? Does he think I'm stupid or does he just not want to sell us a car today?" I am a pushover on some things, but if I tell you no and you push the issue I am not a happy cookie. I told him again that I had just said that that is not what we were looking for. He told me that he was going to go get the key so we could test drive it. I then blurted out, I'm having a baby this summer so we need something bigger for a carseat and stroller and all the baby stuff to fit in. He finally stopped pushing the truck and says "well congratulations! It's going to be a girl, I can tell." This man, who I JUST met randomly knows that I'm going to have a girl? It doesn't seem to far fetched seeing as all of my friends, family, coworkers, and everyone else wants me to have a girl. So on January 8th, 2011 we will find out! I've been trying to think of a cute way to break the news but I think I will just be so excited that I will end up just blurting it out. After all, that's what I did when we found out we were pregnant. I just called everyone and told them. Not cute or fun, but I was SO excited. My dream was finally coming true!
As Christmas approaches, I think about all of the family's with their kids waking up bright and early and rushing to open presents. I think about reading stories, drinking hot chocolate and sitting with loved ones around the fire. And as I think about all of these wonderful things, it is starting to hit me that this is my last Christmas of just Brian and me. Next Christmas we will have a little 5 month old to dress up in hilarious Christmas outfits that will embarrass them down the road. haha I'm just looking forward to having my little family all together. Now only if we could have Izzy and Vini with us as well. Maybe one day we will live close enough to get to have holidays consistently with them. But until now, I am praising God for the blessings that He has poured and continues to pour out on my family. I have a wonderful, loving, handsome husband who loves me. I have two beautiful step kids who melt my heart and who truly are a blessing. I have a little one on the way that has been my dream for a long time. I have an adorable puppy that I can dress up in ridiculous outfits. And I have food on my table, a bed to sleep in, a roof over my head, and an awesome support group. I AM BLESSED.
Love and Kisses!!!!
Kayla Jo
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