sicker than a dog...

Actually....other than being accident prone, my dog has been perfectly healthy. She missed the first step when we were going up the stairs into the house and face planted in the concrete. I could tell she was in a lot of pain because she just stood there and looked at me. I had to wait a couple minutes for her to slowly make her way up the stairs. Poor thing, I felt so bad! But other than a couple of those instances, she has been fine. I on the other hand have been down and OUT.

For the past couple of weeks my ears were hurting a little, my throat was a little scratchy, and my nose was running. Because there is so much pollen everywhere, I thought I was just having allergies. Tuesday morning at 3am I woke up and my left eye was completely swollen shut. I thought that something was in my eye and it was aggravated. I was freaking out! I flushed it out and tried to figure out what was wrong with me. I was awake when Brian's alarm went off at 7am, and super exhausted! I got ready for work like normal and started my day. At 9am, I still could barely see out of my eye and was spending more time in the bathroom trying to figure out what was in my eye than actually working. I looked online for a small urgent care clinic and immediately I thought about the Take Care Clinics at Walgreens. I thought that it would be affordable and easy to go to, so off I went. I spent 15 minutes filling out information on the computer screen while the workers are walking around me. When I'm almost done with filling out the information, one of the ladies asks me if I am the patient. Now, I had no one around me or with me.....it was just me, so I said yes. She then tells me that they don't treat pregnant women- information, mind you, that I did not see on their website. Instantly frustrated that I had wasted time filling out this information, I asked her where else I could go. She gave me directions to Legacy Urgent Care. It wasn't too far away so I headed that way. By the time I get there, it's 10. I fill out their paperwork and wait.......and wait, and wait, and wait, and wait. They finally call my name and I head in hopefully. Their system is ridiculous! They called my name and I talked to a nurse about why I was there and was sent back to the waiting room. Then they called my name again, took my weight and blood pressure and was sent back out to the waiting room. Then they called my name again, and had me wait for forever in the exam room. The doctor finally came in and asked me questions about what was going on. He looked in my nose and throat and said I had a sinus infection. He looked in one ear and then the next and told me that I had double ear infections. Then he said that I had infectious pink eye that I got from the sinus infection not being treated. I just laughed. He looked at me with this weird shocked face and said that normally people don't laugh when he gives those kind of diagnosis. I then responded with asking him if he has ever had a pregnant woman come in and have a sinus infection, double ear infections, and infectious pink eye. I told him that it was kind of ridiculous! We both chuckled a little over how dramatic it was. He then went over the prescriptions and I was on my way. After dropping off my prescriptions through the drive-thru, I went to the gas station because I had to use the restroom. "No Public Restrooms" the sign reads. I sigh, get back in my car and head over to Subway. I figured I hadn't eaten yet, and I needed to use the restroom. "No Public Restrooms" Again?? So I finally asked the girl where there WAS a restroom because I had to go! She told me CVS- where I had dropped my Rx's off. A little frustrated with the irony, I headed back to CVS to use their restroom. I FINALLY got home at 2pm and got to take my medicine and relax. Ridiculous day!

During my resting, I got a call from my office. My friend/coworker, Nidia asked me if I was going to be ok for the training I was doing tomorrow. - wait, what?! what training? I had NO idea that I was supposed to be conducting training. My boss was swearing to the girls in the office that he had sent me an email on it...but I just knew that I wouldn't have forgotten something like this. Either way, I had to do some sort of training for 10 of the managers. When I woke up on Wednesday morning, I was barely functioning. But I had to suck it up for this training session that I was supposedly told about, an OBGYN appt at 2:20, and a staff meeting at 4- I was too busy to be sick. So not breathing very well- because my nose was stuffy and throat was sore, hearing very well- because of the ear infections hurting my ears, or seeing very well- because my eye was swollen half shut and completely red, I headed off to work. The first thing I looked for at work was that email....that, by the way, DID NOT EXIST. I never received any email about this training that I was supposed to do today. So I call my boss and he says his his famous phrase, "Oh it will be easy". But he didn't actually tell me WHAT I would be doing....so we get the laptop set up in the conference room and I grab my pen and paper. As the managers start showing up, they are avoiding me like the plague- which I understand! I was a sniffling, coughing, cyclops inches away from croaking! I sat at the end of the table and made it through the presentation and training for the two programs that my boss was highlighting to the managers. After the meeting, I went back to my office and tried to get some more work done. My boss told me to go to my doctors appt and then go home and rest. I left with Brian to my check up with my socially awkward Dr, and then went home and SLEPT.

Everything went smoothly until I went to sleep Wednesday night. I had been taking my medicine and my eye hadn't gotten any better yet, but it hadn't gotten any worse so I was hopeful. To put Wednesday night in terms that won't gross anyone out, I was so sick that I might as well have taken my pillow and blanket in the bathroom to sleep. I was pretty much up all night- dying, or so I thought. That's sure what it felt like. But I am writing to you today, so obviously I made it through! I was still awake and in the bathroom when I heard Brian's alarm go off at 7am. (Just for the record- It is so much more annoying to hear an alarm go off when you have been up all night sick than when you have slept for at least a couple hours.) I crawled back in bed and told Brian that I was definitely NOT going to work today. I called in to work and explained the situation. I got to sleep and rest for the majority of the day, which was really nice. Today, however, I had to go to come to work. I couldn't just sit at home anymore. I couldn't watch any more tv or movies. I'm just not hardwired to be that way. I have to accomplish something. I mean, yes, technically I was accomplishing healing my body and feeling better, but I have to have some more stimulus than the tv. So I am at work this 'wonderful' friday just so that I don't have to lay on the couch at home. Today will be an easy day though. I'm going to do things that I need to do and take it easy-----Wow....hate to interrupt your reading, but how ironic is this?! I am here typing about how I'm going to take it easy and my boss walks in to my office and says "I have a project for you". haha I at least was hopefull that today would be easy.

Well, I did forget to knock on wood.....

I am so blessed!

When I was in high school, I couldn't think of anything else but escaping that little town. Getting on my own and living my life with no rules. Now, as I'm planning to visit Oklahoma for my brother's wedding and planning to go to Florida for Christmas, I am so excited. I am so ecstatic about seeing all my friends and family. I'm thinking about all the pictures I want to take and all the conversations I want to have. I'm trying to cram so much in one little trip because I haven't seen these wonderful people in SO long!

I have to admit that I got a little teary-eyed thinking about my family and friends yesterday. I was just thinking about how blessed I am:
-to have this perfect miracle growing inside of me. It's all my dreams come true.
-to have my cute little puppy Emma Lou to keep me occupied so I don't emotionally overload my friends or husband.
-to have my beautiful niece and nephews and to get to hear their voices tell me that they love me on the phone. They are growing up so fast and I feel like I'm missing it all!
-to have my family in Florida who have been sending me all this PINK stuff for the princess. She definitely won't have a shortage of girly things for a while! : )
-to be incredibly blessed to have such an amazing sister who is always there for me when I need her the most. She always has good advice and the truth to give me when I need it. She has always taken care of me and I am truly in debt to her for always being there. I hope I can be as good of a mom as her.
-to have my weekly conversations with my Granny. She is the most beautiful soul I know. Just hearing her voice helps me get through the day! I can't wait to see her.
-to be married to a wonderful man with a beautiful and kind mother in law.

I am truly blessed. 

Brian and I were reminiscing about his proposal last night. Just thinking about the look on his face and how nervous he was. Sharing our story with our friend Gil was almost like reliving it all over again. I could taste the dessert. I could see the sunset on the bay. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach as he got down on one knee. And I can't help but smile and almost tear up every time I think about it. We have had some hard times, of course, but they are so outnumbered by all of the amazing memories and just the day in and day out of our lives. I love him more than he knows, and now we both love our little peanut more than she will ever know. I can't wait to see him love on her and be the great dad that I have seen him be with Izzy and Vini.

We have some rough times ahead, but I know we will make it through.

I am blessed.